Peculiar Worlds and Circular Illusions Page 2
"Of course."
"How did she die? Your mother wasn't old." I told him. He remained quiet for a minute or so and then said, "Are you married?"
"Separated."
"I see."
"I appreciate you taking the time to see me," I said.
"No, no. You have traveled from America. It's the least I can do."
I took out the journal from the Pan American flight bag I'd been carrying and handed it to him. "This was yours I believe."
He placed the journal on the table and ran his hand slowly across its faded and spotted green cover once or twice. He glanced up at me, a distant smile on his face. He looked back down at the book, opened it and thumbed slowly through its pages. I waited. A few minutes later he closed the journal and nudged it to my side of the table. "Thank you."
"Would you like to keep it while I'm here?" I said.
He shook his head slowly. "Were you in the war?"
"In the Pacific. You?"
"The war to end all wars as they once said. Until yours came along. I was with the British army, in the desert. Arabia and Damascus in 1917." He paused. "How long will you be here?"
"Only for the week."
"I see." He again paused. "You have your mother's eyes. Did you know that?"
"I think I noticed as I got older. How did you meet my mother and father?"
"Of course you want to know, everything. But I can not promise you resolution you see. It is not at all what you might think. Not like an American film."
"Mr. Barclay, I really don't think anything yet. Until I came across your journal, my father had always been a mystery to me. As close as my mother and I were, she never said that much about my father. I sensed that she loved him but ... after a while I stopped asking. I think there's more that she never told me. For whatever reason."
"Of course." Again. I felt Robert Barclay watching me closely, studying me. "Why don't we go to my place. It's only three blocks away." I started to rise but Barclay held up his hand. "Elliot Sandstone, your father, was decapitated. The two Arab boys who found him before six on Monday morning stated on the 'breath' of Allah that they were not the ones who placed the severed head of your poor father on the window sill of a house two blocks away from where your father's body was found. Allegedly the window sill where the head had been placed was the bedroom where resided the mistress of the abode, half Moroccan and half Spanish, who was the madam of one of the ten most notorious brothels in that part of North Africa. I was not there, in Ceuta, when it happened. Shall we go?"
I remained frozen in my chair, unable to move. Robert Barclay stood up, his piercing blue eyes watching me. "Yes. Of course," I said finally.
Barclay lived on a narrow street above a small department store, in an area that had an obvious Arab flavor, with its deep rich sounds of customers bartering with street vendors and smells of the Mediterranean and Africa.
We entered his flat, which was dark and cool, with high ceilings and a creaking wooden ceiling fan revolving slowly above our heads. The only light were the thin slivers that came through the closed wooden shutters and sparkled on the smooth wood floor. On one wall was a tapestry, difficult to make out in the dim light, but covering the entire wall. "Please, have a seat. Would you like some coffee?"
"Thank you." A minute later Barclay returned with two small cups. The coffee was sweet and syrupy.
"Have you ever been to North Africa, Richard?" I said no. "Your father was one of those Englishmen who loved the desert. That very peculiar trait certain Englishmen possess."
"Are you one of those Englishmen, Mr. Barclay?"
"No, not at all. I am like most of the Arabs. Given the choice, very brief, periodic visits would suffice." Barclay took a sip of coffee. "What do you know about Ceuta?"
"Until I saw the name in your journal, I had never heard of it."
"Ceuta was a Carthaginian settlement. Hannibal supposedly spent time there. Later, Rome built a colony there. Spain took it from the Moors in 1580. Ceuta is today a military and penal station governed by Spain, even though the enclave is within Morocco.
"And what was my father doing there?"
"I met your father in 1912. He was one of the bright young lights in the rather dull and unimaginative British Foreign Office, in his early thirties. Nearly ten years older than me. I was placed under his tutelage as I had just been accepted into the service. I eventually met your extraordinarily beautiful mother at a diplomatic function in London. The three of us became close friends.
"In 1913 your father was posted to Spain. He pulled some strings and managed to get me there as well, as a sort of junior-junior officer in the commercial section."
"In Madrid," I said.
"Yes. Where our embassy was. From the first day he arrived in Spain, your father was constantly on the go, traveling around the country. He made a number of trips to Gibraltar. And perhaps other places."
"What exactly did my father do at the embassy?"
Robert Barclay smile slightly. "He was in the political section."
"I see. Doing what?"
"The political section tended to be a catch all for all sorts of activities."
"I'm not sure I understand," I said.
Barclay shrugged. "Your father may have been with British intelligence."
"But you're not certain?"
"No."
"And my mother?"
"I'm not sure what she knew. But in 1913 Europe was backing into war. And no one could begin to imagine that the horror of the twentieth century would commence in 1914."
"Are you saying my father's death was connected to his work?"
"No ... I don't believe so."
"Then—"
"When your father first graduated from the university he spent eight or nine months in Syria as well as North Africa on an archeological dig. The desert captivated him from the very beginning."
While not expressing my feelings to the man sitting in the chair across from me, I was beginning to feel restless, sensing much more had not been stated. "Mr. Barclay, your portrait of my father certainly conjures up a rather romantic and mysterious figure. I would very much liked to have known him. My mother never mentioned any of this." I paused. "But his death in Ceuta?"
"Yes." Barclay looked past my shoulder for a moment and then his attention returned to me. "Richard, do you believe in the spirit world or the occult?"
"I'm sorry?"
"Beyond what we can see, feel, understand sometimes. Outside what science and technology can tell us."
"Mr. Barclay—"
"Robert. Please."
"Robert. No, I have not thought about the, occult whatsoever."
"I understand. Would you care for more coffee?" I shook my head. "Your father believed."
"In the spirit world?"
"Yes."
"How did you happen to give my mother your journal?"
"Let me show you something." Robert Barclay got out of his chair and opened the wooden shutters, which looked onto the street where we had walked down earlier. I squinted as the bright Mediterranean sun surged into the room and its warmth enveloped me immediately. "Look at the tapestry." I stood.
The bottom half of the tapestry was a cerulean blue. But, the color gradually changed as my eyes moved from the middle of the tapestry to the top. The blue darkened until, near the top of the tapestry, it became dusk-colored in a kind of half-light. A thin, delicately rolling line depicted the horizon. I stepped closer. A shadow near the right side of the tapestry, slightly above the horizon, was clearly noticeable, yet not definite and distinct. But to me it appeared to be the silhouette of a person. "It's, it's almost hypnotic," I said. "Where did you get it?"
"From an Arab dealer many years ago."
"And there is a connection?"
"I gave the journal to your mother, in this very room, in 1928. Aft
er the two of us had returned from a brief visit to Ceuta." I now suddenly remembered my mother going away when I was fifteen. I was sent off to stay with my grandparents until she returned. Robert closed the shutters and the interior began to cool immediately. He sat down and I did the same. "Your father went to Ceuta in 1913, that I know of. He told me so."
"On embassy business?"
"Officially. But there were other reasons as well."
"And what were they?"
"Richard, by March of 1914, your father knew he was dying..."
I sat up slowly in my chair. "From what?"
"Doctors in London, where he returned for one month, told him they thought he had a brain tumor. Remember, this was 1914, not 1950. Your father declined any operation. He returned to Spain. And traveled even more, often with your mother.
"I learned of his condition one night while dining at your parent's house. No one else knew how ill your father really was. But, he told me something else." Barclay became silent.
"Was my father in much discomfort?"
"He never talked about it, at least in my presence, but your dear mother told me sometime later that the last month was very difficult. She also said that at night he frequently sat in your darkened bedroom by the side of the bed watching you sleep."
"What, what did he tell you that evening?"
"That he had met the past in the desert outside of Ceuta."
"The past?"
"Soldiers from Carthage, Roman Legionnaires, Moors, and Spaniards. All who had occupied and lived in Ceuta at one time."
"Robert, you've lost me. My father saw, spoke to, to what? Ghosts? Spirits wandering around in the desert?" I got out of the chair, irritated with the direction of the conversation. "My father was a sick man at that